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29.7.14
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27 Years Old
Now I was never hiding anything although I could have been kicked out...prior to joining, among other problems my ex-husband had an issue keeping it in his pants, my love for him knowing no bounds I agreed, after finding out our AIT was 6 months long that we could have an open marriage. He quickly thought it was a trick demanding to know who I had met upon arrival at San Antonio, no one. When he was satisfied that he would be the only one fucking he agreed. I endured just one week later taunting phone calls of women he "throat fucked", made cum with little effort (since I took forever), pleasured with his 🍆 & just to rub it in bc I missed them so much walking my dogs together. I thought I was providing him with what he needed so I took it accepting that as part of what happens in an open marriage. When I got to FLW he became insistent that I go out & get fucked having been too inexperienced being his wife. The four people including him wasn't enough since I had only experienced vaginal penetrative sex with their penis'...I was like a virgin in his eyes. I objected, cried during lunch breaks under my desk as the specialists above me took advantage of my frail state. I gained weight, went through terrible depression having not been touched in over a year. I'm not talking sexual touching....wearing a uniform means it's inappropriate to hug other coworkers in uniform especially if you don't know them...especially if you are just a private. The mind does horrible things to you when you are starved of loving attention & affection so when the military said I was a fat disgrace & put me on phentermine I lost the weight....but got all the sexual attention. Now my superiors began demanding I give them some or else they would make my life hell...(disgusting)...so I was branded a trouble maker yet made to work all the time on the inpatient ward, providing all of the treatment & care. I had no life, a husband pissed off & verbally abusive threatening to kill himself & our dogs if I didn't give an open marriage a real shot...so I got as drunk as I could...went up to the hottest guy I saw took him home & fucked him...I did this 7 times in a 3 month period with different men in the military & no condoms...as drunk as could be. I didn't care if I lived or died but thankfully I never got a sti/d and never got pregnant. I always believed that because I was such a whore during that period The Universe took away my chance to have children...so I was surprised when 5 years later a healthy beautiful baby came out.
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Domestic Violence
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My 1st husband….
  • Insulted, demeaned and embarrassed me with  put-downs
  • Controlled what I did, who I talked to and where I could go
  • Looked at me and acted in ways that scared me
  • Pushed me and ripped my clothes off
  • Stopped me from seeing my friends and family members
  • Controlled the money in the relationship, made me ask for money and refused to give me money
  • Made all of the decisions without my input or consideration of my needs
  • Acted like the abuse was no big deal and told me it’s my fault
  • Destroyed my property, threatened to kill our dogs
  • Forced me to drop criminal charges
  • Threatened to commit suicide
My current husband….
  • Insults, demeans and embarrasses me with put-downs
  • Controls what I do, who I talked to and where I can go
  • Looks at me and acts in ways that scare me
  • Pushed me and our child
  • Stopped me from seeing my friends and family members
  • Controlled the money in the relationship, made me ask for money and refused to give me money
  • Made all of the decisions without my input or consideration of my needs
  • Told me that I am a bad parent and threatened to take away my child
  • Prevents me from working and attending school
  • Acts like the abuse is no big deal, denies it and tells me it’s my fault
  • Destroyed my property
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